i walked out of my body today
I walked out of my body today. I left behind everything in the name of sanity. This world is crumbling down around my ankles. Run to a new place, try to start again. I'm in the same box, the same world crumbling around me ankles.
I am so isolated so I can't get hurt. I shun the groups and their conformed views. They sit in nice straight rows. While the teacher trains them to become useful parts of society. All the differences they try to drain away come back stronger than ever.
Even the scales, put everyone on the same platform, to be laughed at and mythed. Rumors fly like biting, stinging, strangling beasts that cause more pain than death. For there is no end. With death at least the pain stops. With school, It has only begun.
They are not satisfied until we have nothing left inside to desecrate. Until our bodies show the scars of normality. But when you look into the darkness of our minds, there is nothing. No fear, No love, No hate. The only thing left is the black. The impenetrable black.
written: 5-6-98